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Free by Zac Brown Band

I had dinner with my two of my best girlfriends this evening. It's one of their birthdays and we went for burgers, fries, shakes, etc... It was fun.

Earlier today Mark, Quinn, and I went to hang out at a friend's house. We played games; Scattergories, Apples to Apples, Monopoly. We did it last week too.

It's been very good for me to get out of my head. When I'm at home I spend every minute (essentially) checking different places for job possibilities. Tonight I had to go look at getting help from the gov't. So totally humiliating I can't even bring myself to fill out the paperwork. I have to get health insurance for Quinn. I can't pay for it.

Honestly, I'm in such a bad place I can't even look myself in the mirror. I dont know how I got here, but it's dark.

Then... this song comes on the radio and reminds me of where I'm REALLY at. Yeah, it's bad, but I have Mark. I have Quinn. I have good friends, good family. I have the essentials. A nice reminder of what's real and what's not. Dont get me wrong. Being broke? Jobless? REAL. But not ALL. I may have to listen to this song over and over again to make it sink in... until then, there's pharmaceuticals and who doesn't love that?

Laughter is the best Medicine!

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Originally uploaded by the pantsie

All laughter is beautiful... but you'd be hard pressed to find better laughter than this.